The thought of “going within” oneself to discover the things we’ve been hiding can be pretty scary. It’s like there you are… the real you… with all your vulnerabilities coming to surface. The wounds that never were mended are there, open and raw, and put on display for you to feel… again. Often times the fear of going there, can paralyze you.

The Journey of Shadow Work

The mind is a powerful thing, and it will do what it thinks is best to try to protect you. I know all too well about this. There have been times in the past where I have sat down to do shadow work, because I wanted to face my fears and see the truth of what was running the show in my life, and I would “run” from myself. My hands wanted to pick up anything and everything it could to get busy doing something else. My feet wanted to move my body away from the space I was trying to relax into. My eyes would wander about trying its best to find anything to distract me. My subconscious would cry out from the depths of me, “noooo… don’t go there!”

The Journey to discovering me

I had a lot of healing to do, loads of shadow work! I began this journey when I was around the age of 17. 20 years ago… wow! I remember sitting in the living room telling my sister about these 2 recurring dreams I had been having and posing questions to her like,” Why do I do this?” “Why do I act this way?” “What makes me this way?”

After hours of sitting with her and bouncing questions back and forth about us. I had a great epiphany… a great remembrance… and I remember saying, “I’ve got to go talk to mama.” I needed to confirm what had finally come to the surface. Now it was deeply traumatic, an atrocity, a heartbreaking truth that had been shadowed in the underside of my subconscious mind. A memory that was hidden yet had such an impact on the way I felt and moved through life, I had to uncover it.

What a discovery!

I won’t go into detail of what that was, but I’m sure you can image. A 17-year-old, shut down, locked inside of herself, anxiety stricken, confused, depression fighting mute girl just had to find out why she felt all she felt. I had to know. It consumed my mind. I could not stop until I found ME. As the years went by, and the shadow work continued, I became more of myself. I discovered things about me and suddenly my whole experience would make so much more sense.

I found me

Instead of struggling with the wonder, I dared to flow into the wonder, and sought out the real me… and ALL that that encompassed. I thought of myself as a tree, and every time I took a look within and seen everything I was composed of, I could grow. Limb by limb, I traveled to the root of the things that would either poison the fruit I could bare or feed it nutrients for the healthiest, highest quality I could bloom. I committed to myself, with a knowing that each step in this journey I took would elevate, nurture my soul, and allow me to unfold into the person I am meant to be and not who I was taught or told to be. I found me.

Was that easy? Absolutely not! It was downright hard. Would I choose another path if I could go back to that 17-year-old version of me that first took a step onto this path? No. I couldn’t imagine living life never seeking out the answers to some of the most eye openings questions. I couldn’t imagine not allowing myself the space to let my heart crack wide open. I couldn’t walk the path I’m on now in assisting others in their healing journey, had I not first taken a journey of my own.

The greatest journey I have ever taken, is the journey to discovering me.

I’m pretty lucky, actually. I had my sister, my best friend, my open eared and open-minded sister to shoot off questions with and to vent to… no matter how dark those things were, she never ran away, and that made all the difference. We used to call it “sitting on a stump” a big ol’ journey into our imaginary forest, to sit on a stump, and ponder the meaning behind it all. I’m thankful for that.

Extraordinary Gift

The irony… I became that “sister” to everyone I’ve ever worked with. I created a space for them filled with a frequency that says, “You are safe with me.” I open my aura to help transmute all the things they’ve ever been through, the hardships they’ve endured, the traumas they’ve suffered, the emotions they have held onto. I fire questions at them to unlock those hidden, repressed, or stuffed down experiences within their subconscious. I help guide them through their healing process, bust through blocks, and shatter limiting beliefs. I connect to their heart to empower, amplify, and enlighten them to the truth of who they really are beyond all the programs, shadows, and pain. I get to do that.

Your Journey Starts

I tell you all of this, because I know… I know how terrifying it can be to take that first step, to face your shadow, to peer into the darkness that has been hidden from you. I know how hard it is to accept and love those parts of you. I know how hard it is to find balance within so that you can see balance in your everyday life. I know!

So this is my open offer to you. You don’t have to go at it alone. You can have that safe space to let it all out and to let it all go. You can heal. You can have a radical transformation for yourself and live a life worth LIVING.

I am here. You are not alone. The fear is but a guide, beckoning you to look within… simply a stepping stone to discovery. So, if you are ready to take this step, I am here.

Reach out to me- @ journeyintuit@gmail.com